Uncomfortable Morning

I had a really weird day today! My boss who is also one of my cousin's wife called me this morning and asked if I would watch her about 2 week old baby, Rocklyn, while she ran to a meeting. Her monther-in-law is coming in to town today and she was thinking that she would be around to watch Rocklyn while my boss went to the meeting but her mother-in-law wasn't going to be in town soon enough. So I went down to where the meeting was with her and just hung out at a Starbucks and watch Rocklyn while my boss went to the meeting. I walk into Starbucks and place Rocklyn down and not even 30 seconds after I place her down and start thinking about how I was going to work the whole juggling her and my purse while I go get a drink when this random guy comes over to chat with me about Rocklyn. He is definitly older than my dad and starts chatting with me about Rocklyn and asks if he can get me a coffee. I tell him I'm ok, I'll get myself a drink in a minute. He insits and I give in and he goes to get me a coffee. He comes back and starts chatting with me. I first think he is just a nice man and think nothing of his chit chatting with me. The next thing I know he is telling me that I should come down to Renton sometime (the city we are currently in) and he would show me around which is a little odd to me. He is an artist and the next thing I know he decides he wants to do a charcoal drawing of Rocklyn. I was a little annoyed because he was trying to get better lighting and was more concerned about getting the right angle than keeping her asleep. My main concern was obviously to keep her asleep because I knew the moment she woke up she would start crying. The next thing I know he decides Rocklyn is kind of hard to draw so he wants to draw me. I'm trying to focus on Rocklyn and keep her asleep while he is telling me to look at him and turn my head certain ways. Then he starts joking with me about how I am going to pay him for the drawing and suggests maybe I should go to lunch or dinner with him. Very uncomfortable at this moment, I just laugh it off and say that he was the one that wanted to draw in the first place. Thankfully Tarelle came not too long after this and rescued me and Rocklyn. He drew 3 pictures and gave them to Tarelle and I. Needless to say I don't think I have ever been so uncomfortable in my entire life.

Please just listen and think people!

I know I complain a lot on here and it's probably annoying to read but I am going to again anyways :) I'm not sure anyone reads my blog anyway except for maybe my sister, but that's ok.

I know I have complained about the radom people who come into our office asking dumb questions like "What floor is suite 250 on?" or those people who don't take their time to figure out what the address is of the building they are in but decide to take my time and ask me. Well, today one person asked me if any keys had been turned in to me. First off, if you take one second to look at our front office door you will know that we are not the property management but just your typical business. Second, I know the people don't know me but do they really think that I would take some random keys that were left laying around? If there are keys laying around they would probably be turned into the propery management, or I would tell someone to turn them into the property management but they still decide to ask me anyway.

For some reason information is giving our phone number out as the phone number for Lowe's so I will occationally get the phone call asking me if we sell refrigerators or if we have received a certain package. Well, this week a chick called to see if we had received a package. Having had this question asked to me before I knew right away that she was trying to reach Lowe's. If she would've just listened to me when I picked up the phone she would know right away that it isn't Lowe's because I answer the phone with our company name and my name right off the bat but of course they never listen. Well, I went on to explain that we are not Lowe's and that they put our number down as Lowe's but I don't know the actual number for Lowe's. Again she did not listen to me and said, "Oh, well I have the right number" and hung up. I knew that she did not actually listen to me or understand what I was trying to say so I knew she would probably call back. Sure enough, about 5 min. later she called back again and I had to explain the whole thing over to her again.

One last one I promise :) A few months ago we had a guy come in wanting to use our phone to call long distance. Well, we don't have long distance on our phone, we just use our cell phones so I told him that we don't have long distance. He persisted to try to get me to let him use the phone and he would pay for it. I don't know how much it would cost and I don't have the time to sit there and figure it out and then let him use the phone. Eventually he got the idea that we weren't going to let him to he left. Well he came back in this last week and wanted to fax something to China. Again he said he would pay and again I said, well I don't know how much it would cost and it would take more than just a few min. to figure out how much it would cost and I don't know if our fax machine would even be able to. This time at least he didn't stick around and try to convince me. What business is going to let some random person off the street fax something to China? Go to Kinkos or something.

All these things wouldn't be so bad but when it happens at least 2-3 times a week and at times twice a day they really start to wear on you. Maybe I should look meaner as I sit at my desk. Maybe then people won't want to come in and ask me questions. I've been tempted to put a sign up with all the answers to the questions I get asked all the time but you know they wouldn't read it and would come in and ask me anyway.

being yourself vs. being who you want to be

So I have heard more than one person tell me through out my life to act like the type of person you want to be and then you will be come that person. (i.e. act like you have confidence and you will eventually have confidence) Does that ever really work or do you start to loose who you are? The last year I have tried to push myself to do things I am not comfortable doing and take a step out of my compfort zone. The last few weeks I have started wondering how beneficial all those things I have done really are. I find myself feeling like I have to give excuses for not doing things that I don't feel comfortable doing. I don't like doing things by myself but I do when I really want to do something and there isn't anyone to go with me. I was also taught that there are certain things that girls shouldn't do by themselves but I feel like there are people who are contantly asking me why I don't go do those things. I don't know, I feel like all this pushing and trying for a life that is the typical "Washington Life" is making me loose part of who I am. I feel that way with my parents and their pushing for me to get a boyfriend and get married. I am loosing my care free relaxed nature about my life and gaining a critical voice that keeps telling me that I should be out doing all these things by myself and should have a boyfriend. I'm ok with my life, why can't everyone else be too?

(Sorry, I am just frustrated right now)