I'm ready!

When did I become old? I knew it was coming and have been fighting it in a way but today I officially felt old and think I might actually be ok with it. I came to this realization when I read an email from a friend of mine. She had a meeting with a guy and said that he was young and couldn’t be over 31. I totally agree with her that 31 is young and that’s when I realized that I am officially old. I know I am still 5 years away from even turning 30 but to view 31 as young, I think that makes me old. Besides that, I can’t drink like I use to any more. I figured that one out a couple weekends ago when I went to visit friends in LA. I always thought that when I turned 25, that would be when I needed to figure out when I should start worrying about wrinkles and start using an anti-wrinkle cream or something. I am turning 25 in 36 days. I can’t eat anything I want like I use to and when I do I can get the pounds off but they don’t come off as easily as they use to. I still feel young in some ways though. I can’t imagine being married right now. I know people who have gotten married at 19 or 20 and cannot imagine being married for 5 years at my age. My Mom already had 2 kids at my age. I haven’t even changed a dirty diaper. My cousin just had a baby a month ago and I am totally content being the “fun cousin Beth” for at least a few years. I watched my cousin’s baby for about an hour a few weeks ago and that was the first time I had ever baby sat for a child under the age of 1. I have been out of college for almost 3 years now as well. I think I am finally ok with turning 25 though. I have been struggling with it for the last year but today I finally feel ready. I’m ready to put all the dumb decisions, bad choices in boyfriends, and bad choices in friends behind me. Take the things I have learned in life, the person I have become and step forward into the unknown world of adulthood. I still have a long ways to go but I am slowly learning what I want out of life and what is really important to me and the type of person I want to strive to be.